Firsts

Today my first born is having her first day of first grade. It is truly a day of firsts for us.

Megan was so excited she was ready to go about 30 minutes before we needed to leave

the house. She is so ready to have something special all her own.

I have to admit unlike some moms I was totally ready for her to go back to school. I thought she would enjoy herself alot more and I wouldn't have to constantly break up fights between her and Andrew. I can tell you that as reality has set in I have felt a flurry of feelings. Watching her get on the bus made me feel so sad and I started to tear up. My little girl is growing up. She got on that bus and didn't even look back. She was all set and waved goodbye from her seat. I have spent the morning with Andrew feeling like I'm missing a part of me. Things around here feel empty and I miss my little helper alot. At around 9am I realized I needed to kick myself into gear and not feel sorry for myself today. After all I do still have Andrew around till he starts preschool for half days on Monday. Then I think I'll really be a mess!!

I miss my little girl and am amazed how fast they grow up!!